Wednesday, January 17, 2018

The natural mood lifter

I’ve been trying to be better. Eat better, put better things into my body. Better about keeping up with the house, and keeping things cleaned up (not to brag, but entering day 18 and still going strong). Better about not turning on the TV and instead doing something productive or setting a better example for the kids (I am still trying to watch an old episode of the West Wing that I started at lunch, watched a bit at dinner and have yet to finish tonight because I just have not turned it on). I’ve really been better at trying to keep moving...Keep my steps up, my heart rate, get that exercise in if at all possible.

Of course, we all know about the Facebook ads that take over our feeds and disrupt our social media surfing. One of them kept catching my eye, so I finally had to check it out, and by gum if I don’t absolutely love it. Body Groove kept coming up over and over in my feed. And I watched the videos and the work out seemed really fun and really varied, so for $40, why not try it. I have never been so in love with a work out in my life. I tried the DWTS work out videos but the steps still seemed as though they needed to be so precise. That is the glorious thing about this DVD I have been using. Nothing is precise, and you move.....around the entire house! I’m in the bedroom working out, then I’m in the dining room, and it is all over the map. The craziest part of it all though....I am smiling while I am working out. I don’t do that while I’m running, unless I tell myself a funny joke. I don’t know that during yoga. I smile when I do this. I’ve also found the effects work rather well when you just dance to your own music. I have found myself the last two nights with headphones in my ears, dancing around the house so as to not wake the kids and pulling moves from my Body Groove DVD’s....and when I’m done, I’m dripping sweat and SMILING!

Now, I can’t give Body Groove all the credit. I had been doing a plank challenge with a wonderful friend I made through 4-H. I don’t know if you have ever had the occasion to do a plank, but they are not fun....Then when you hold it for a minute four times over they are just plain sadistic. Moreover, they are effective. While I might not be losing inches around the waist as I would like, I have found that my overall core strength has improved greatly. I am able to balance on one leg and change leg and hand positions with the limbs in the air for around a minute without getting super wobbly! So, I might not be “seeing” the results, but I am seeing them in how I am feeling, and for that I am grateful.

So, when you don’t feel like hitting the gym, or doing that work out, just plug in your headphones, find the music YOU enjoy dancing too, and let it go. Don’t worry about someone seeing you. You only live once and you only get one body, so take the time to enjoy it!

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

First day down

So, first day is in the books. Not to toot my own horn, but dinner made and cleaned up, dishes are done, kids are cleaned up and in bed. Homework is done. And I’m sitting here quietly enjoying the silence of the house and it is only 8:30. I’m pretty happy with myself. I was thinking that I was going to work out tonight since it has been a several days since I’ve done anything, but I think tonight, I might treat myself to reading some of my book. I haven’t read much this last week, so it might be time to pick the book up again.

So, I’m going to trade a work out for reading, and I’m putting out there that I will work out double tomorrow just because A. I feel better when I get one in, B. I certainly need it after the weekend of food that I indulged on, C. I need to get back into the routine of getting that done. The nice thing is, with inventory coming up, I’ll be out running around the warehouse doing cycle counts getting steps in left and right. Double bonus if I put my headphones in and just dance around like no one is looking. Thankfully 2018 has been the year of me giving less of a crap of what people think, so I have found myself dancing around places more than I remember in years past. I have always car danced, a trait I am happy to say that I have passed along to Matthew....Zoey, not so much. I find it just makes me happier. So no I find myself dancing in my chair in the office, out in the warehouse, cooking dinner. Just anywhere I am if I have my music to listen to.

Maybe that is what the world needs more of. maybe if we all just gave into the music and danced more we would be a happier place.

Sunday, January 14, 2018

The first of many

Okay, maybe many is the wrong word, but right now it seems like that. Tomorrow kicks off travel season for Ryan. His winters normally consist of two trips, but this year, he will have four trips that he is going on, and he leaves for the first one tomorrow. Two of these are his normal trips. He is used to where he is going, and familiar with the territory. His last two to end his season of travel are new destinations and present new learning opportunities for him. I am so very proud that he and his co-teacher are getting national recognition.

Of course, with these additional trips comes more time where it is just the two monkeys and myself. The zoo is what it will feel like, but when I stop and look at things, the house will for some reason run like a well oiled machine while I am home on my own, down an adult in the house. I don’t know if it is because my resolve to buckle down and get the stuff done, or if we just seem to be able to pull together knowing that he is gone. Either way, things will at least seem to run smoother.

This coming week, I’ll be starting with a handicap. We were supposed to have tomorrow off, but a snow day (first in two years) got a bit in the way of that. I’m hoping that my after school care will be in place, but I suppose I will find that out at some point in time tomorrow. I have my plan in place for tomorrow, and I am hoping that it runs according to plan, but unfortunately I have a feeling it will be a bit of a crap shoot tomorrow, but I suppose I can hope for the best can’t I.

I must apologize for my several day absence. Thursday I was so tired, Friday I spent the entire day on the tablet working from home since you know...snow day, and I had my company holiday party last night, so the kids and I were running all day. While I was awake after the party, I didn’t figure that anyone wanted my intoxicated ramblings. So, I suppose this is an advance apology if I don’t get a blog written for the next three days. I might have a few other things taking more of a front seat, but I do promise that I will try my best to get something published out.

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Bad Habits

Bad habits are really hard to break. You will be going along good and then all of a sudden....bam, brick wall. Most of the time, when I get to the hard spot I just revert to what I was doing to begin with and don’t look back. Today, I hit a wall when I got home...hard!

It started with having to double back to get the forgotten (twice over) lunch box. The drive through increasingly dense fog didn’t help elevate my mood much when we finally made it home. It made me down right tired. I can handle winter, but this winter/spring/winter crap in January puts a straight drain on your energy. After making one tiny human mad with the decision of sloppy joes and baked beans for dinner, listening to her scream and cry from her room only lowered my mood.

I tell you this because my previous posts have been, “oh, this is so easy, I don’t know why I didn’t do this before”. We are two days into our school routine and I was ready to throw everything out the window! When I finally got myself out from under my blanket and off the couch to tuck the kids in, I realized it was 8:30 and I had not gone through school bags, I hadn’t made lunches or even thought about folding the laundry that was down in the dryer (don’t get me started on how laundry has become and every day occurrence for me).

I tell you this because I wanted to set the stage for how down I was feeling. Tired, cold and generall not wanting to move thanks in part to my work out that I put myself through last night. I wanted to pull out a Pepsi and sit down and enjoy some mindless TV because that is what I would have done in the past. It would have been easy and safe to do that. Instead, I finished tucking everyone in folded the laundry (again, every friggin day), packed the lunch, sorted through the bags and sat down with some lemon water. It wasn’t what I wanted, but I knew it was the better option, and I think that knowing that I was going to sit down to type this out helped me make that decision. As a matter of fact, I don’t even have the TV on, I turned the IPod on instead.

Now, I’m skipping my work out tonight because I am sore as all get out today, and because I was dancing around the office, but the fact that I didn’t just give in on the rest of what I’m doing is huge. I’s day 10, REALLY? Trust me, that’s kind of what went through my head. I think I was probably more harsh with myself than I really needed to be, but it got the job done, and right now, that is what I need to happen. I need to get the job done. I need to keep that momentum going as I am getting ready to go into inventory at work....Just get the job done...Instead of telling myself all of the negative and hateful things I know I always do, I am going to tell myself to take it one step at a time and just get the job done. I’ll be much happier when I know that it’s done, and the sense of accomplishment will be astounding. Sometimes I think the even bigger hurdle then not reverting back to what we are comfortable with is the giving ourselves any positive reinforcement, and that is something I know I need to work on.

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

I see

It looks at though someone has been reading my little blog, so I will try to not disappoint.

Day 9 of the new year, and the house is still looking good. Amazingly enough, things are staying caught up on, and the clutter in the rooms that have been purged is still at a 0 on the level of craziness. I have to say I am rather proud of this adventure I have decided to take.

I’m also noticing that it is, in fact, having an impact on my life. I came home tonight knowing that we had a Girl Scout meeting to go to, and a load of laundry in the dryer. Ryan went to pick the kids up after work, so I was home half an hour earlier than I expected to be. I had the laundry folded and in the bedroom that it belonged in, as well as tomorrow’s lunches half way packed before the kids even arrived home. That left me with nothing “house” related to do when we got home from our meeting, so instead of feeling instantly defeated as well as resentful of this work that never seems to end, I instead got to sit down and eat a nice dinner (of stale taco shell nacho’s) and proceed to write a blog article. Matthew was tucked into bed without a fuss, and now we will get Zoey off to dream land after she gets some snuggle time with her dad.

Even though the house isn’t completed the way I want it to be, I’m perfectly okay with this simply because I have a plan. The crazier part in all of this is that for some strange reason, I am okay if my plan to get the house in order doesn’t work out totally. I don’t know if this is a sign of how 2018 is actually going to be for me, if it shows that I’ve matured, or if my “liquid calm” oily roller ball has finally sunk in completely. I suppose either way you go, it really doesn’t matter....the point is, it is working, and I am in a calmer state than I can remember in a long time.

As for my non-lotion of not reaching out, it has been a bit of a challenge, but any time I feel myself start to pick up my phone to text someone just to have someone to talk to, I resist the urge, and pick up my book, or go sift through a closet. I’m finding that by doing this, I am talking to only the people that really truly want to talk to me at the time, I feel like less of an inconvenience and I am getting more stuff done around the house. So it is paying me back two fold!

2018 is off to a decent start so far, I am happy to report, and I will do my best to keep updating my blog regularly. I’m sorry to bore with these trivial things in my life right now. If you have a suggestion, please leave it in the comments section, and I will try to come up with something more interesting to write. This is a blog about my crazy life, and right now, it seems I’m trying to take things into a less crazed direction if possible.

I will end by simply listing my #happythings
1. Seeing my long lost friend tonight.....okay, she wasn’t long lost, but it felt like it since I haven’t seen her or her little girl in a month.
2. Getting information on Cookie Sales.
3. Getting on step closer to being ready for inventory today at work.
4. Feeling more clam all the way around.
5. Having all of my meetings for this week cancelled.
6. Feeling better than I have in a long time, physically and mentally.

As always, thank you for taking time to read about my crazy little life.

Monday, January 8, 2018

What a difference six months makes

So, on today, this the last of winter break, the kids got to go to the dentist. The good news is, they really enjoy going to the pediatric dentist that we go to. The bad news is, Matthew had a cracked filling, and needed another small one. Zoey, my little one that has had good teeth needed one little filling on a back molar as well. The good news was, all were able to be filled with a little laughing gas. Three years ago, Matthew wouldn’t be fooled by the gas, and wouldn’t let the dentist near him to get any dental work other than counting his teeth done. I know this because before I started the job I’m at now, we had to have an outpatient surgery to remove three molars because they were so very decayed. Today, the fact that they were both able to do fillings with nothing more than laughing gas made me so very proud of them.

Then we came home, had a little lunch of McDonalds (I had a salad from Taco Bell), and finished putting together the play room as well as the art table that we moved up from the basement for the kids.

So, I now have three rooms completed in my quest for cleanliness. Three rooms, leaving me the master bedroom that needs to be completed before moving down to the basement. Well, maybe I’ll throw in the hall closet again before I move onto the basement. Every little bit that gets finished, every piece that gets purged out. I broke my rule, and looked through the jeans that were hanging in my closet this morning as I was getting ready for our outing today. I pulled the jeans that were getting just a little too tight out of the closet. I found the one’s the I wanted to keep and put the one’s I had probably never worn in the Good Will pile. I put the one’s I wanted to keep because it isn’t that the don’t fit totally, it is more that I am not fully comfortable in them currently, and folded them up and put them in my cedar chest. Of course, my cleaning ADD kicked in and I decided that while I was digging in there I should go through my sweaters. Some of these pieces I have had since I was in high school. I was pulling things out that were 20 plus years old. Guess what, some of them went into the pile. Some of them went back into the chest.

Because of different jobs I’ve had, I have some dress capri pants that are hanging in Zoeys closet because I simply did not have the room in our shared closet anymore. I think going through my clothes that are in her closet might be my next big project before going full bore on the bedroom. I can move clothes that are seasonal into the chest in our room, and the hopefully in the spring, I can pull everything out again and do another decent purge!

The best part about all of this is the mental clarity I feel as though I have. Come home and don’t feel the mental weight that I had had previously. For whatever reason, having these trivial things taken care of when I get home take that much weight off my mind. I didn’t realize that I had ever really thought about it that much, but I suppose since I feel so much better now, I had been without realizing the actual weight of it all.

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Seven Days

As I posted in my #happythings I’m seven days into the New Year, and seven days into the things I am actively working on changing. I know that they say it takes 30 days to create a new habit, so I’m hoping if I do them all at the same time, this 30 days will be a breeze.

Seven days since we rearranged the living room, and while I just finished the last area of purging on this past Friday, we have been doing a good job of keeping it clutter free, toy free and generally cleaned up. Again, Ryan was home all this week, and of course there was no school or after school activities, so that could have helped or really hurt. To be honest, I’m surprised that I didn’t come home to the living room being a total wreck most of the time, but I haven’t, so I am hoping that as we start back into our routine this week, we can keep things going this way, especially since we won’t be home the majority of the day!

In the effort of decluttering life, I went from the last area of the living room and moved into the bathroom. While I took yesterday off to spend some time with the kids glazing pottery we had made at a holiday blizzare and picking out paint swatches in the chance we might get to do some painting here. So, I picked up where I left off on Friday and proceeded to purge my make up bag and clean my brushes as well as clean the entirety of the bathroom. It is amazing how much better it feels having those two rooms done. Now, while the bathroom wasn’t the worst room in the house, it was one of those things that I see first thing every day first thing in the morning, and I think it just makes me feel tense about all the clutter I have floating around. Now, I have another room taken off of my mind.

While I am trying to power through as much of this as I can so that I can finally sit back and enjoy my down time with the kids, I’m also realistic that my schedule during the week isn’t going to allow me to do much of anything once things are back in full swing, so I’m making this my mission starting Friday night when I get home from work if I don’t have any other prior plans (which is almost NEVER) and one weekend day. The good news is, the play room is half way done, but still needs to be finished, then our bedroom, and Matthews room, but that won’t be until he and Ryan finish staining his desk. Then, we can tackle the basement. I’m thinking by the time I get ready to attack that area, we might be into the swing of spring, and there might be a rainy day or two where I can work down there. I know I can certainly bring totes up from downstairs to go through on nights when I get home from work. The main thing is, I’m trying to keep from moving from room to room until I get the one I’m currently working on finished. So I’m picking my battles carefully and purposefully.

With this room purging, I’m also working on making sure that laundry gets taken care of in an efficient manner. While I need to clean the closets out and do a major purge there, I would very much like to not spend my day off on the weekends playing catch up on laundry and folding like 5 loads in one day. Sadly, I’m finding that I am having to do roughly a load a night to keep up, but now that I think about it, that really isn’t all that bad in the grand scheme of things. I have my load for tonight in the dryer as I type this, and I’m hoping if I follow through with my “why put it off” attitude, I can follow through with getting up early tomorrow morning (since I have the day off) and get it folded before I wake the kids up for the day. I’m also hoping that I can also get my work out for the day in before the kids are up as well! Here is to hoping right?